Blogging to let go of the past

I had an up and down day today after a week of almost self destructing. I gained a pound and now it is pre-monthly bill week.

This morning I rode 5 miles on a local trail. I'm starting to get used to my gears. There was only one really challenging part, and the rest was just a lot of fun. I'll have to calculate how many steps this ride would be.

I had a light lunch afterwards. For breakfast I had some eggs, and the only snack I've had is an all natural snack bar. Eating wise I have been stellar.

However, I decided to go clothes shopping to see if I could find some summer pants/shorts/skirts. I found that even the bigger size was a little tight. I went home without anything, and I flopped on my bed and got ready to break down and cry. Then, all of a sudden, a shift happened. A light bulb went off. I have a choice. It was my choices that got me into this (for the most part, not counting illness past), and it is my choices that can get me out of it.

I've been mostly blaming allergies for my low energy, but what if it is lack of exercise? It has been a while since I whole hog worked out.

I also was thinking how our thoughts are what turns into emotions. What if I decided not to think about it and instead ignore the underlying thoughts and take action instead?

So, I decided not to think, not cry, got up from my bed, and then I did 20 minutes on my Nordic Track which translated into 101 calories burned and a little over 2.5 miles.

I'm proud of myself for not breaking down and instead went for breaking a sweat.

Tomorrow I will weigh and measure myself and formulate some workout plan for the week. What if I choose to go whole hog for one week straight? What would happen? It would be a good experiment.

Lastly, I have been thinking about the last time I needed to lose 15 pounds. I was in the summer before my junior year in high school. I went low fat, counted calories, and worked out like a fiend. Later I wasn't needing to work as hard to maintain, but maintain I did for about 10 years. I got sick and didn't workout. I gained the weight back, plus, I got older (which can't be helped). When I was 16 I promised myself that I wouldn't gain the weight back, but I see that I have. It's over 20 years later and I've been hating myself for a promise that was ill made (literally) and very young and naive.

I'm working on choosing to forgive and just let it go. I kept this promise for a long time, but I didn't figure in all the road blocks that could have come my way. Maybe it would have been better to simply promise myself to be good to myself. This seems to be a little more realistic. Don't you think?

Time to hit the shower. Have a great weekend!

Fitnfun :O)

Woo Hoo! 4 miles baby!

Yesterday we went garage/yard sale hopping. We finally found a Nordic Track with a computer for $5. The Nordic Track wasn't as good as the one I already have, but the computer, after a quick clean up by my fiance, works really well. It's in kph instead of mph so I need to convert, but I think I got it down now.

I found that I workout the best with my nordic track if I have the tunes blasting and I push myself with the random computer setting. I'd get to 3 miles and only 26 minutes so I'd push to get to 30 minutes and see that I was almost to 4 miles so pushed a little more. Overall - 4 miles - 34 minutes - 160 calories! Good workout! I was sweating and got an all over body workout. On the slow songs I'd jack the resistance up and get my lower body strengthening in. On the fast ones, lower setting so I could go real fast with my upper body burning from the rope action!

I don't know why the Nordic Track lost a following. It is still one of the best workouts out there. You get everything targeted for a 30 minute workout. Cross country skiing is still one of the best calorie burner/toners out there. My recommendation is to go to garage/yard sales and/or thrift shops and pick a Nordic Track up for $10 or less!

I'm thinking of doing some pilates/yoga tonight to round off today's workout. My goal date is May 26th and I'd like to lose anywhere from 5-9 pounds. I'm ready to do this now.

I tried on two pairs of my old pants. One I couldn't get over my big butt, and the other I couldn't zip it up due to my muffin top belly, but I have visions of getting into these pants soon.

It is time to shed this image for a new one that matches me better. A more fitnfun image!

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Blew it last night....

I had a slice of cheesecake and I didn't workout yesterday. Enough said. I will get back to it today. I'm wearing my step meter. Let's do this!

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Did myself proud today!

Today I did really well! I worked out for 50 minutes on my nordic track, did well with my eating. I drank a good amount of water, and my steps were at least over 2,000 (yes, the only low of the day).

I still need to get more steps in, but with the working out, it was probably closer to 5-6,000. 120 steps/minute times 50 minutes is 6,000 steps. So maybe even closer to 8,000!

I did happen to catch the Biggest Loser tonight. I am extremely impressed with the old guy walking the 26 mile marathon. He did not give up despite his problems with diabetes. It was truly inspiring. It made me say out loud, "I need to step up now."

So tomorrow, I'm going to get to 10,000 steps! I'm going to eat well, drink lots of water and take my vitamin supplements.

I scheduled a photo shoot on May 26th with my photographer friend. I want to look good since it will be a surprise present for my fiance.


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Disgusted and adjusted...

I had a good/bad week this week. Wednesday I was good from the momentum on Tuesday. I set a goal of 5,000 steps and I logged in at 5,075 and I went on a mini-hike with my fiance! Thursday was only 2, 075 steps, but I did do some gardening. I was working like a dog that day and sitting on my butt at my computer most of the day. Friday, I felt so blah, worked on my butt again all day, and just gave up. Eating wise, I pigged out on nacho cheese chips.

This morning I gave myself a pep talk. I want to make the changes to be successful. I shifted my goal to May 26th, but I'm not changing it again. If I push myself a little harder, which is what is needed, I can make my goal!

This morning I gave myself quiet time in the morning and will add back in meditation. I worked out today with Turbo Jam Remix and added the 2 pound weight gloves. I was sweating! I did make it through the entire workout too!

I did happen to read more of the step diet book. It can be a little complicated adding up all the steps for the food you eat, so I think I will just concentrate on getting the steps I need to lose the weight. The good news is I found out that other activities besides walking are valued at around 150-220 steps/minute. So if I walk and do another activity like my aerobics, I can make it to the 10-12,000 steps needed for me to lose weight! Tomorrow I'll start wearing the pedometer again and make sure I plan for 40-60 minutes of working out at least four - five times a week .

Eating wise, I'm going to be good today and eat as clean as I can. Tomorrow I will figure out a week schedule. I do better if I have some kind of schedule, as you can see, I didn't this week.

I hope everyone has a nice weekend, and I'll blog at you tomorrow!

Fitnfun :O)